I always felt like I was outside the box looking in. I came from a family where my siblings were 8, 11, and 13 years older than me. They were much older and already I felt like the odd kid out. I was born in Chicago in 1971. My parents, for whatever reason, thought it would be a great idea to move to Canada when I was six weeks old. We rented a duplex in Thunder Bay Ontario until I was nine months old. Mom and dad bought a motel just outside a little town called Nipigon about seventy miles north of Thunder Bay. It was here at this motel that I would begin my awareness of not quite “fitting in.”
I didn’t discover I had Asperger’s until a couple of years ago. All my life I felt stuck, wondering why I never fit in with anyone. Relationships have been difficult to say the least.
I always knew I had a quirkiness to me. I could never quite figure out why. I pondered many times, am I defective? What made me seem so awkward and different from others?
My life hadn’t been the best but looking back it certainly wasn’t the worst. I had my share of receiving abuses and other not so pleasant life experiences. I went to therapy, found Jesus (yay), went through forgiveness, and still I felt “off.” I finally did a long deep look at myself and decided to research why I was still out there. Lo and behold, after long hours of pouring through research and analyzing my traits since childhood, I found my answer. I carried all the traits of Asperger’s.
Some would disagree that since I didn’t get a professional opinion, it doesn’t validate my findings. From previous issues with other health related issues, I had to research or it would have cost my life. That’s for another blog…
I’ve gone through the gambit of suffering through depression/suicide most of my life, parents divorce, abuse, teenage pregnancy, married three times, etc….a whole lot of other stuff. But, I am a survivor in spite of it all and want to share with others.
Essentially my blog is about my journey living with Asperger’s and how it formed me into the individual I am today. It is and will be more than just about Asperger’s….just an aspect of me and how it is a part of me. This is my journey and I hope you enjoy and perhaps learn new things just as I did along the way. Welcome to aspiegirlandmore…